For nearly two years I was with the man I thought I was going to marry, have children with and spend the rest of my life with. I loved him so all-consumingly that I worried about his death. Driving on highways or flying on airplanes, it didn’t matter; I just thought of what risks it posed to him and how terribly in pain I would feel if he were ever to be gone from my life. Even though I felt a bit silly worrying about him, I couldn’t help myself. We used to say we were half of each other. He would say to me that he couldn’t wait to grow old with me. We were intimately close and open with each other in a way I’ve never been before and in a way I know I won’t find easily again.
He broke up with me after New Year’s suddenly and without warning. Now, I marvel at how quickly it’s taken me to fall out of love with him. How very, very odd it is to look inside myself to see if there’s any little bit that still loves him after what he’s done to me. Keep reading »
Venus entered Sagittarius on January 7 (lasting until February 4), marking my favorite Venusian time. With the pleasure planet being run by the sign of spontaneity, adventure, freedom, truth and idealism, what could go wrong? Besides all that, the reason why I also love it so is because I was born with a Venus in Sagittarius! That means nothing conventional will ever suit me, as I’d just die of boredom if life were a predictable series of events that never allowed me to bounce around, exploring every good time, interest, strange curiosity, truth or challenge I encounter. Yes, surprises happen with Venus in Sagittarius and holding back is never on the agenda. Instead, time to spread your wings and go leaping off the edge with only blind faith and unrelenting optimism in tow. Yes, time to take chances, believe in the impossible and explore the extraordinary! Find out how to make the most of Venus in Sagittarius for your specific sign, after the jump…
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Here’s the thing about drinking — it’s a multi-tasking activity and it makes lots of things even better. Here are just some things I really enjoy doing with a glass of wine in my hand:
- Taking a hot bath while reading a gossip magazine
- Liveblogging award shows and “The Bachelor”
- Cooking and eating
- Playing fetch with my dog in our building’s long hallway (since our apartment is small and it’s too cold for the dog park right now)
- Reading in bed
For the record, these are all frequent activities in my life and I will miss my friend Vino when I am doing them during this period of sobriety. Because I’m also giving up men — particularly the dating and sexing of them — I know I need to find new activities to put my energy into, especially things that wouldn’t be improved by, say, my favorite cocktail of Cristalino champagne and grapefruit juice. Keep reading »
While discussing my New Year’s resolutions, I flippantly threw out that I was going to try to be less of a sarcastic jerk when talking to my husband — you know, for the sake of my kids.
Yes, it’s true. I have caught my boys — even the 4-year-old — using some of my own special brand of sarcastic quips or passive-aggressive phrasings, and it has made me wince. Deeply. Read more … Keep reading »
I don’t know who these signals work on, but I think I’m going to find out at my local watering hole this weekend. Well, that is until someone tries to help me because they think I’m having a seizure. [The Hairpin] Keep reading »