Woman Fulfills Life-Long Dream Of Being Blind By Pouring Drain Cleaner In Her Eyes

Jewel Shuping had dreamed of being blind since she was a little girl, thanks to a rare psychological condition called Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), which causes people to believe that they should be disabled. In 2006, Shuping claims that with the help of a psychologist, she fulfilled her dream by pouring drain cleaner in her eyes, causing her eyesight to deteriorate over a period of months. She is now almost completely blind.

“It hurt, let me tell you. My eyes were screaming and I had some drain cleaner going down my cheek burning my skin,” Shuping told People. “All I could think was, ‘I am going blind, it is going to be okay.'”

While Shuping says she is happy with her decision, she doesn’t advise others with BIID to follow in her footsteps. “Don’t go blind the way I did. I know there is a need, but perhaps someday there will be treatment for it. People with BIID get trains to run over their legs, freeze dry their legs or fall off cliffs to try to paralyze themselves. It’s very dangerous. And they need professional help.” It’s unclear to me if she means they need professionals to help them fulfill their dreams of being disabled in less dangerous manners.

“I really feel this is the way I was supposed to be born, that I should have been blind from birth,” Shuping, now 30, told People. When her mother and sister found out about how Shuping lost her sight, they cut off contact with her. Still, she has no regrets.

“I went blind on purpose, but I don’t feel it was a choice.”