Megan Fox covers this month’s issue of Esquire, and she’d like you to know that she’s actually been religious this entire time.
“I’ve read the Book of Revelation a million times,” she told interviewer Stephen Marche. “It does not make sense, obviously. It needs to be decoded. What is the dragon? What is the prostitute? What are these things? What is this imagery? What was John seeing? And I was just thinking, What is the Antichrist? When war breaks out in the Holy Land, like it is right now, if that is a sign of the immediate end times, then where are the other signs? Is it possible that it’s the Internet or fame itself or celebrity?”
Fox grew up attending a Pentecostal church in her native Tennessee. Pentecostals have a reputation for being ‘tent revival’ Christians, the ones who handle snakes and speak in tongues. And now that she’s older, she’s still going to Pentecostal services. She said:
“I have seen magical, crazy things happen. I’ve seen people be healed. Even now, in the church I go to, during Praise and Worship I could feel that I was maybe getting ready to speak in tongues, and I’d have to shut it off because I don’t know what that church would do if I started screaming out in tongues in the back. It feels like a lot of energy coming through the top of your head — I’m going to sound like such a lunatic — and then your whole body is filled with this electric current. And you just start speaking, but you’re not thinking because you have no idea what you’re saying. Words are coming out of your mouth, and you can’t control it. The idea is that it’s a language that only God understands. It’s the language that’s spoken in heaven. It’s called ‘getting the Holy Ghost.’ “
Later she adds, somewhat somberly, “I was raised to believe that you’re safe in God’s hands. But I don’t feel safe with myself.” She says that her husband, actor Brian Austin “David Silver” Green, makes her feel safe and protected, which is one of the things that she loves about him. In other interviews, Fox has said that Green picks out her clothes for awards ceremonies. While those behaviors could be seen as sweet, they could also be viewed as controlling. Considering what else Fox has said about her childhood — that it was incredibly strict, that she wasn’t allowed to date, and that her father had to approve of any friend she invited over — it sounds like she was primed for a patriarchal, gender-ordered romantic relationship.
How did Megan Fox go from posing in bikinis to giving interviews about her faith? I’d venture a guess that motherhood has something to do with it. She gave birth to son Noah this September, and in an announcement about his birth she said, “I am forever grateful to God for allowing me to know this kind of boundless, immaculate love.” And parenthood isn’t the only major change in life. Fox told Esquire that she’s having several of her tattoos removed, beginning with a portrait of Marilyn Monroe. She’s also acting less and considering roles that aren’t as much about sex appeal.
Are we witnessing the second coming of Megan Fox? Or are we witnessing the breakdown of a young woman who has been trampled by the Hollywood machine? Toward the end of the interview, Fox begins to ramble. Her quotes are portrayed as broken up, random mumblings: “We should all believe in leprechauns.” “I believe in aliens.” “Loch Ness Monster — there’s something to it.” “What distracts me from my reality is Bigfoot.” But if she believes in everything, isn’t that akin to believing in nothing?
It sounds like Fox is going through a crisis of faith of sorts and trying to figure out what her beliefs mean to her now that she’s Megan Fox The Celebrity. We can only wait and see whether she decides to keep modeling for lad mags or if she finally follows that dream of becoming an archaeologist in the Holy Land.
Lilit Marcus blogs about pop culture and religion at Faith Goes Pop.