Kate Moss Reveals She Had A Nervous Breakdown After Iconic Calvin Klein Ad

“I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark. It didn’t feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn’t like it. I couldn’t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die. I went to the doctor and he said, ‘I’ll give you some Valium.’

It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There’s a massive pressure to do what you have to do (and) I was really little … I didn’t like it. But it was work, and I had to do it.”

– Kate Moss describes the effects of the photoshoot with Mark Wahlberg that produced an iconic Calvin Klein ad campaign and helped make her one of the highest paid supermodels in the world. I really admire her for being so honest about this, but I’ve gotta say, this quote makes me incredibly sad. 

Kate, especially when she was starting out her career, has always been praised for a certain hollow-eyed aesthetic. There’s an indefinable quality in her stare that draws you deeper into whatever magazine page she’s on. After hearing about the emotional turmoil she experienced behind the scenes, I’m realizing at least some of that look in her eyes was vulnerability, fear, and resistance. This moment that was captured on film and distributed around the world was so uncomfortable for her that she didn’t leave her bed for two weeks afterwards. All in the name of selling boxer briefs. When this ad first came out, I thought it was so glamorous. Now I think it’s depressing.

What does it say about the modeling industry that she needed to do shoots like this in order to be successful? And what does it say about us that we all looked into those sad, vulnerable eyes and ran out to buy more designer underwear? [Young Hollywood]